I am realizing there is no hope for me to understand and know all the mysteries of our faith, to have every angle understood properly or to be the end all be all for spiritual truth and understanding. Instead I am realizing that to truly know the living Lord Jesus Christ who has made his abode within my being, who by His spirit has caused me to be joined with Him in oneness. To know Him truly who is love and to so flow with His life and love within offering no resistance to His expression. There is no more room for me independently of Him, no more need to be right or wrong, just found in Him abiding with Him and living by Him, living from Him, from unity with Him expressing His love. As Paul said if I understand all mysteries or do great things, etc… and have not love or and live not by the indwelling life of Christ, then I have nothing. I no longer need to attain to anything, nothing else matters but to know Him.